a long goodbye

These three went back to school today.  We realized that a good way to make our summer seem longer is to live somewhere that starts school two weeks later than most of our friends.  It sure seems to stretch out the long summer days.
Today started what I have decided is a very long goodbye.
Letting go of my kids.
I have felt like I was letting them go for years now, since I sent my little Luke off to kindergarten.  I let a lot of rope slip out of my hands today as I sent Isabel off on her last first day of school.  The last year of school that any of my kids will be at the same school.
A growing shorter string of lasts ahead of us.
Last football games, last dances, last swim practices, last of the silly high school blow off classes…a long goodbye to high school.  Which leads to a long goodbye to childhood really.  We say goodbye every single day that we have with these kids, because we can’t get them back.  Our days just seem numbered here on out.
12th, 10th and 7th grade will fly by this year.  Luke will find new freedoms this year as he starts junior high and will become an official teenager.  Max will have to adjust to not having headphones in his ears non stop and will slip away a little more when he gets his drivers license this year.  And Isabel will wrap up her high school years with a tidy brown and gold Davis high bow and move on to greener pastures filled with jobs and budgets and big adult decisions.  Big decisions that don’t always include moms and dads.
We’re one step closer and said a few more little goodbyes today…but will holding on to these goodbyes with everything we have.