I wrote a post once a few months back entitled “Do you remember?” and in it I mentioned the idea of my little one walking away from me on stronger legs. Alluding to the day he will start kindergarten. It seemed such a distant event. As if it would never get here. And yet, here I sit realizing that I have 2 days left with him to myself. The kids will be out of school, summer will be busy and in 11 short weeks I will be sitting in my kitchen crying because my little blond baby toddled his way off to school. As a 5 year old.
If that is not enough to rip out a heart, I don’t know what is. No one ever warned me how much it would hurt to have my little ones grow up. I am sure I have been in denial of the fact that my kids are actually growing up. Isabel tries her hardest to remind she is no longer 3, but she has been doing that since she was 3. Some how the days slipped by. The years blurred into the next and my version of motherhood will never be what is has been for the last 10 years, almost to the day.
This post is a shout out to moms. I need some warning about the milestones that will rip out my heart so that I can prepare myself for them. While I should be been preparing myself for the last 10 years, I was busy thinking the day would never come. As foolishly as I thought my babies would never sleep through the night. So, what rips out your heart? Maybe I can’t actually prepare myself for these things but can only pray for strength when they come my way. Still, I would love a small heads up. You know, like 10 years notice.